Settling for crumbs

We’re all here to do, be, and have more

But in reality, if you drill that down to the core of it all

It’s that we want to feel happy

And I feel like I’ve hit Nirvana

I adore what I do for a living

I’m writing and loving it

My home is a total delight

I’m fit and healthy

I’ve even lost some weight without trying (up yours menopause)

And my life is goooooood

But it wasn’t always like this

I was doing a job I didn’t want

Working for a company I no longer liked

And for less money than I was worth or happy with

I wanted out

I’d wanted out for a while

I gave it a year

It ended up being two

And I leaped

I handed in my notice with no other job to go to

Just with the idea of starting out on my own

I ended up landing a contract within the first couple of months

That paid me double what I earned before

For working almost half the hours

And it got crazier still

The first time I earned £500 for one hours work I started wondering if I was in the twilight zone

But then it happened again!

And again!

It wasn’t all roses

I didn’t know as much then as I do now

There were definitely some bumps in the road

I didn’t realise that these ‘bumps’ are actually signposts

But as I look back on the six or so years of my life then, to my life now

I thank my lucky stars that I had the bottle to do it

It seems so ludicrously small now but it was huge at the time

I have, and my life has changed so massively in the past few years it makes my head spin to think about it

Who I used to be and how I ‘lived’ my life

To now

I realise I didn’t know what actual ‘living’ was

I was taking crumbs from life’s table

When all along it was an all you can eat buffet